Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Not Doing So Hot on This Posting Thing...Or Writing For That Matter

Things have been a bit nutty. They always are this time of year. It's when I become a widow to the deer hunt. This holiday weekend was the longest ever. It just wouldn't go away. Normally I'm all for the paid time off from work, but Piper just wouldn't quit. No naps until an hour or two before bedtime. Stripping all her clothes off and peeing on the floor. Honestly, it felt good to go drop her off at my mom's for work yesterday. The whole plan for the weekend: Write when Piper's sleeping. It just never happened. I swear I have bad luck or bad karma. Bad something.

Then there's is this personal thing that I've been going through. I think it's a quarter life crisis. I don't know. It's just that I've realized that you only live one life, and, well, I want a job that makes a difference in someone's life. Even if it's just to make someone's day go by a little easier. Plus, I really want to run my own business. Have for long time.

This current job I'm now is supposed to be the big after college job. But I don't feel that great about it for a lot of reasons. Most of which I won't mention here because they are private. It's not the first time that I've felt that I'm not right for the corporate world, though.

So I've decided that I want to start an errand business. I think it's an unfilled niche to this area. I also think it won't take off right away, so I'd like to supplement with freelance writing. I suggested this to my dad and the response was less than overwhelming. I knew better than to mention it to my husband.

Then I pitched the idea to Miss Michele's Tarot, the lovely alter ego of Dawn Allcot. The reading? Basically, I will be successful, but it will take work and there will be obstacles. Story of my life. I've always been a fan of hard work to reach what you want. It builds character. But that reading also meant that in order for this to start happening, I'd have to talk about it to my husband. Which scared the crap out of me.

I walked around for many days with my stomach twisted in a knot, and tears leaking down my face. Finally, this weekend, I got the nerve to say something to him about what I wanted. His response, very typical for him, was something about how we couldn't afford it right now. Well, I don't mean right now. I'm thinking of a launch in a year or year and a half or so. Huge planner, right here folks.

So I'm going to put together a plan, get my foot in the door freelancing, and do this thing. I don't know how much time that will leave for fiction writing, but I want this. I really want this. So I'm going to try very hard to achieve it.


Lori said...

I sent you an e-mail, Tori, but wanted to stop here and wish you the best of luck both with the business idea and the freelance writing.

Ed Pahule said...

Don't feel bad. I didn't write for the first three years after my first son was born.

Midnight Muse said...

The chance to follow your heart can make many sacrifices seem quite small !

Anonymous said...

Soccer Mom Sez:

Good luck, Tori! That's a scary big step, but I don't doubt that you're the gal who can do it.

I didn't write for about the first two years of my eldest son's life. I just couldn't. And then came the second child and well--three more years. Yup. That's five full years with no writing.

Pat yourself on the back that you can get anything done with a toddler.

Hugs, Mary

Arachne Jericho said...

Quarter-life crises do happen. It certainly happened to me. Follow your heart--it's usually a difficult path but worth it in the end.

You probably have the business course experience under your belt, but if you don't already, now is a good time.

The research into the area of errand services should be fun!

Good luck on new things--and that's a neat Tarot blog you link to! (I have a thing for divination.)

Many hugs!

Pete said...

I'm all for following your heart. I'm probably sappy as a Disney movie on this point, but I think you get more out of doing what you want in the long run than anything else.

This is perhaps not the wisest advice to take, but it's what I've got.

I hope you DO get to blog more. I enjoy reading it when you do. :)

TJWriter said...

Pete, you enjoy my wandering ramblings including the random omission and the overuse of at least one word, if not more? Thanks!

Thanks for all the support. I have a double major in accounting and computer information systems. Plus I worked for years in customer service and, while the job was always a pleasure, I did enjoy working with the people. I'm good at it, and I know it.

I have a lot of planning and research to do. Estimating costs (insurance, advertising, etc.) and calculating minimum needed income. Lots of planning.

I think it will be a good thing. The husband will warm up to it if I keep talking about it.

Pete said...

You're a woman, Tori. You can make it a "warm to it, or death" situation easy. ;)

Dawn said...

I just saw this post, Tori! LOTS of luck!! I'm glad you mustered the confidence and told your husband, but sorry he didn't reply in an ideal way.